Sunday, June 7, 2009

Poeta Corporatus Dramatikos


The bullshit lies in frail tales of false ropes instead of hopes that bind and chain and gag your mind.

Pumpkins, butter, and cheese. "Words" and "talk." Useless thought dribbles from lips of stitch-eyed beings trapped within a cave of lies. Puppets dance before the flame tries and dies.

Holy sacred satanicsoulslide perfectly in you justice be done

Oh but perfection be a waste on those without use

The bar flies and butterflies of the social prismatic spectrum

Exotic and Tropicana

Mmm Tropicana gimme that orange and strawberry banana any day.

Oh but did you know, did you know, Tropicana and Coca-Cola, McDonald's and Wal-Mart, run hand in hand?

The cage for the brain in which perception exists in senses is but the fleshly orb which rests about on moving mechanisms. The head the prison of the brain the limbs meaningless means of transport. The torso, cut open, the mere open hood of a car. The passenger of this machine - the soul. May we surpass the bounds of our mechanical cage in death.


Soundless it steps.
Out of sight, it creeps.
It comes in clips and phrases.
In which it resides: this vessel shows it's faces.

Between the hedges
Outside of definition
Etched within the background, primal.
Only a hint, only a hint.

To be broken through, this "other" side.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Gnostic Experimentation Fun Time: #1

The Quest

At first. . .
A taste, then a nibble, then a bite.
Hungry for knowledge,
Thirsting for sight.

Knowledge creates one of two schools,
The Questionable and The Absolute.

In order of importance, of course.

In truth it happens in cycles.
Questions beget answers,

Which beget more Questions.

In Absolution there is stagnancy.
In stagnancy, cancer.

Always. . .
Shifting, Drifting, and Sifting, too.
Starving for insight,
Starting anew.


Now begineth the journey of a lifetime. . .

In the days of teenybopper "fascination," just ten years ago friends and I would fool around with tarot decks and candles for fun. We'd create our own rituals out of junk we'd seen on TV or in books by Silver Ravenwolf[1] et al, you know the types of Spell "Cook Books" that required incense, candles and little more than the correct phase of the moon. . .

You ended up doing a spell that looked a bit like this:

1. Get a white candle.
2. Carve the Futhark rune for URUZ into the candle.
3. Say your love's name out loud.
4. Write your love's name on a piece of paper.
5. Kiss the paper.
6. Dance with the paper.
7. Now put paper into the flame of the candle.
8. Allow for the paper to burn.
9. Don't forget the fire extinguisher

Before every casting, however, we drew ourselves into a state which I termed at the time as "merging." This is the technique which is adequately described in my other blog post, Guided Meditation, depicting a state of meditation which requires the deconstruction and removal of the self in order to enter a place where the everything envelops the identity.

What I was really striving for when I initially wrote that meditation was a state of nothingness. It is impossible to know for certain what exists outside of life. We do not know that there is most definitely a state of being after death. For this reason we will assume that before you are born there is nothing. When you die, there is nothing (until we have evidence to suggest otherwise).

Don't get me wrong! This isn't a depressing thing, you know, it's just a statement of fact. We are born and then we die and that's it as far as we know. The part that doesn't add up is the everything that exists outside of you - the unknown reality that you get to experience for only moments in time, a reality in which only a fraction of existence is recognized by the human brain-body.

The purpose of gnostic experimentation is to get a better grasp on reality through the understanding of nothingness. If all that we "know" is life and death, then we must get to understand these aspects of reality to the fullest. This means delving into as much experience as personally desired through the mind-body and the body-mind.

Like the Shaman before me, I wish to delve as deeply as possible -- and this time around, my progress will be recorded!

Whomever dare stumble upon these entries, of the Gnostic Experimentation Fun Time(s), tread lightly and with wits to attention for this is experimentation from beginning to end.


10:15 pm – 10:50 pm, previous evening: I have exercised pretty much on and off all day (body and brain), made sure that I ate properly and that I got the right amount of liquids. I don't need to use the potty, and I'm not hungry. I find that I am in a comfortable state suitable for gnostic experimentation which will occur in my living room on a very cushioned futon, in the dark.

My intention today is to grasp the most basic steps of inducing the trance state, which is motionlessness and proper deep-breathing. The attempt at removing all thoughts and delving into complete nothingness will be documented throughout this and all other entries.

Focused attention is used to build concentration which allows the mind to enter a trance state. The focus is nothingness, a void empty of definition.

Motionlessness is obtained through comfort and relaxing each section of the physical musculature consecutively. First, the lights are turned off. The back rests flat against back of cushioned (or pillowed) chair. Legs are kept straight with feet flat on the floor. Arms are resting at the sides of the body.

All possible sound is turned off. Eyes close. Deep breathing begins, as far inward as possible and as far outward as possible. Relaxation of the muscles begins as definition of the “self” is stripped away through a shifting of attention to the potential void. Any thoughts that enter the mind are observed passively and removed just as quickly as they enter.

I first needed to focus on relaxation and breathing. Doing this alone, was not enough to remove all thoughts, even focusing on the idea of “nothing” brought definition to the word itself. In order to avoid definition, I needed to focus on a mantra that was outside of the concept of “nothing.” What first existed as the mantra of “No in, No out, No in, No out,” slowly morphed into the mantra of “AH NO AH NO AH NO AH NO.” Every in-breath represented AH and every out-breath represented NO.

Eventually nothingness was met in fluctuation. Moments of nothing would be interrupted by moments of memory either of things that had occurred today: lyrics of songs, tidbits of conversation, meaningless thoughts -OR- of things that had occurred in my recent past. The continuous focus on AH NO in measurements of my breath slowly dissipated into breathing alone and a feeling of complete nothing with eyes closed and body free from tension.

What does “Not-Feeling” feel like?

It feels like “fluidic space.”

The defining moment of this exercise was, in the feeling of complete peace, opening my eyes to see quite literally a “nothingness” before me. I could not grasp any meaning existent in the room around me and felt that I had most certainly achieved the gnostic state. Being that I am used to entering the gnostic state from solitary experimentation, I found it very easy to jump into a “floating” trance sensation even when thoughts and symbols pertaining to my life came popping into my psyche for moments at a time.


11:00 – PM, The Tone of the Earth – 194.75hz [See Just Intonation: Rough Notes,]

Listening to this tone proved to be extremely difficult as it instilled in me what seemed to be a deeper awareness of the world around me – and nothingness – outside of myself. It was uncomfortable firstly because in focusing on the unchanging pitch of this frequency, other sounds started to make themselves known to me. It seemed that it was simple for me to latch onto any sound that passed my window regardless of how meaningless the sound would be.

This tone made it easy to enter gnosis. Within two minutes of listening to it, I began to get the floating sensation of a gnostic trance. Instead of experiencing comfort, however, the trance seemed to be a burden on my system as though everything I perceived to be real was spinning into a meaningless and gelatinous void -- but isn't this what I wanted?? The sound made the nothing unbearable.

In this state I received mild hallucinations and began to see ghosts and spectres in the corners of my vision. Remarkably and with the lights off, however, I found my eyes focusing on every bit of light that still remained within the room. In a real sense, this was very much enhancing my ability to see in the dark, regardless of hallucinations.

Because my inner reality was so deeply amplified by the tone that I focused on, it seemed my breath became short and I felt hot. I started to focus on the concept of heating myself to the breaking point and resulted with a disgusting hot, sticky, feverishness. I started to focus on gathering all of the energy to my palms and rested my hands on the cat that was sitting in my lap. The heat from my hands appeared to leave his fur hot in the way a laptop gets hot in your lap.

Whether this was a product of self-hypnotism and suggestion, merely only imagining the event, or programming my own body with the power of my mind, I am uncertain. I'll be experimenting with this in the future to see what more I can gather from it.

After the short experiment with energy visualization and heat, I started to feel like I was losing my grip on reality. The swooning and fluctuating sickness overtook me again. The tone, which was on a timer, soon turned off and not long after did reality come back to me. I am amazed that focusing on a sound could produce such interesting responses by my mind and my body in accordance to my mind.

The dreams experienced that night were of concepts that stumbled into each other, visuals that matched but are still in need of distinction. I know I should be remembering these dreams and reiterating them in perfect detail but I feel the need to ease into this practice, regardless of how long it may take.

[1]May the universe bless Silver Ravenwolf and many others for proliferating an interest in the occult for me at a young age. You have fulfilled your role.... oh and on that note, thanks to the Backstreet Boys too, you guys sucked so hard that it was a piece'o'cake for me to turn the opposite direction and start listening to this thing they had out in the 90's called "Alternative."

Saturday, April 4, 2009

The Law of the Will

The Law of Will
By Aiseyis Crowe
(See Aleister Crowley's "Message of Therion")

"The word of the Law is Will, The word of Sin is Restriction."

Pure Will exists as the underlying essence to every human, it is the thing that pushes us toward destruction or to creation. Intention begets will and yet is hindered by the ego which dilutes the will by making ill true intent with the poison of disorder.

When one puts the ego before the will, one worries of failure. Failure becomes intention and the Will is then met with this folly.

While destruction exists as an absolute variable in the binary of all that is, this folly begets a destruction of the Will's purity and so begets the destruction of any possible result.

What must truly be destroyed in pursuit of creation is ego.

It is only disorder that creates confusion and ill intent that creates disorder. Our paths, if pure and kept from the contaminate of ego, do not crash then burst like atoms but move forward on unique tracks according to true Will's intent.

Forget the ego. Forget your self. "Do what thou wilt" and express your freedom by adhering to that which enriches the purity of your goals.

Seek anything outside of this Will's intent and obstacles do certainly arise. Again the Will be met with folly.

"Every act that is not in definite course of that one orbit is erratic, an hindrance. Will must not be two, but one." Do not lust result for fear of failure and desire of success causes intention of Will to be split to pieces accordingly. Your own disorder begets the disorder of your path.

While straying from assumed or desired result, consider the intention of the Will to be met with infinite and unalterable purpose.

The sorcerer is then asked to discover what his will truly is so that the intention be created, the ego destroyed, and the purpose of the will met.

The road to the Will is paved in focus, detatchment from the self, and inner peace through the prior two.

The nature of will is sefless love. Selfless love may exist through even hate for both are passion, one in the same. True lovers battle it out in hate before mending their oneness in the bed of making love. Love becometh the point at the end of a spear that which connects the intent to Will and begets result.

"Love is the law, love under Will." -- Crowley

~Zero One

Friday, April 3, 2009

The Law of The Sorcerer

By Zero-One
(See: Aleister Crowley, Liber B vel Magi)

Sorcerers are betwixt Truth and Illusion. They obtain their power, of manipulation over the forces of nature and reality, through losing themselves and casting off pride, covetousness, lust, anger, gluttony, envy, and sloth. They bind twin forces through love, not selfishness. Through their wisdom they create their world and recognize God and the Universe through their "selves." Their power to influence exists through speech without hinderance of silence. They are the beginning and the end, forever betwixt the two.

Words, titles, and concepts are false. Understanding exists in darkness for neither is true but truth exists in the recognition of the lack of absolute nature to reality.

Darkness begets illumination for the truth is seen in untruth, in creation through the self.

Creation, preservation, destruction, redemption - weapons of the cyclical motion of all that is, exists but never "known" for one can never "know" anything and can only ever create or draw from existing conceptual systems.

This must be recognize to pull oneself into the void and outside of physical form.

The curse of the physical body be uplifted from them through methods attained within recognition of the above.

Their curse is to become the shaman, outside of the folly of inaction, outside of the burden of result. In speaking their wisdom falsehoods are assumed by their students whom are enslaved in perception of that which the sorcerer teaches. Words be spoken with understanding of misconception but without fear of this expression in itself. The law of the Will be fulfilled through acceptance of the inner self, shaped through the self's teachings of all that is within the sorcerer's inherent nature.

Let them take on shifts of shape, become the specific paradigm with which they work for moments at a time. They may take on aspects of Paradigm A, they may push this forward in their work and shift swiftly into Paradigm B if so wished. Let them then contemplate each shift in turn and in accordance to it's seemingly opposing variable, raising it to the ultimate power of infinity.

Sorrow begets Joy, Change begets Stability, Selfishness begets the Self.

Through meditation and practical method shall their teaching be solidified.

And woe be unto the sorcerer who does not teach his law to men.


Thursday, March 19, 2009

Meditation With Just Intonation - ROUGH DRAFT

Equal Temperament is what we recognize in music, it is the standard tuning which is tuned to equal steps but every tone is equally out of tune. In Equal Temperament, the natural harmonies are changed so that every tone is equal in measure. Just Intonation allows for notes to cross over one another but it restricts the range of musical effectiveness and the chords you play. The frequencies are based on natural frequencies found within the natural world. Because everyday music is generally tuned to Equal Temperament, we believe that the way we tune a note is arbritary. However, there are specific resonances in Just Intonation which play on specific perceptive and behavioral synapses in the brain.

256 (C), 128 - 192

266.67 (C#), 134 - 201

270 (C#2), 135 - 202.5

273.07 (Db), 136 - 204

288 (D), 144 - 216

300 (D#), 150 - 225

307.2 (Eb), 154 - 231

320 (E), 160 - 240

341.33 (F), 170 - 255

345.6 (F2), 172 - 258

360 (F#), 180 - 270

384 (G), 192 - 288

400 (G#), 200 - 300

409.6 (Ab), 204 - 306

426.67 (A), 214 - 321

432 (A2), 216 - 324

450 (A#), 225 - 337.5

460.8 (Bb), 230 - 345

480 (B), 240 - 360

512 (C) 256 - 384

The frequencies on the left are the originals and they are based on the frequency scale 256-512hz. They are based on a 19-tone Just Intonation Scale.

The frequencies on the right are the orginals divided in half and rounded up to the nearest even whole number, and also their related fifths. The fifths are all calculated to their related root notes using the ratio of 3/2. This gives them their strong resonance with the root note.

I have made sound files for all of the frequencies on the right, which are all combinations of root notes and their fifths to form a 5th Chord, which is commonly known to make power chords in rock music. I did this by using the program Audacity for Mac. The program has the ability to generate sine wave tones as well as other waves, though the sine waves are the most effective in meditation.

The use of just intonation is what makes these frequencies so resonant. When using the common tuning of equal temperament, each notes relation to one another by frequencies is compromised in order to extend the range of musical tonality and give the ability to transpose pieces of music to different musicals keys. The fact that in just intonation the notes and chords are restricted to a smaller range is the only draw back to it, but in using the frequencies for purposes of meditation, this drawback is irrelevant.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

The Tome

The Tome

This is not a graphic novel. This is not a novel. This is not a spell book. This is not an essay.

It is not erotic. It is not gentle and nor is it rough.

Something I like, something that speaks, about something else I know I shall keep. It speaks in waves and speaks in thought, it keeps you intrigued by wisdom sought. Open your mind to ideas and yet think critically.

The Tome is open. . .

(current graphic novel / novel project to be published in near future.)